Fall in love with Fall

I wrote a blog post back in 2015 when I lived in Colorado writing about how my opinion of this time of year had been thankfully changed, I just pictured Autumn to be a struggle as I got soaked going to school and the effort that was put into my hair looking slightly presentable for that day had gone to waste. This time of year has a whole new meaning; rather than focusing on the unimportant I think about the things that count like the stillness that is in the air, it almost seems quieter.

I have been playing this game of tug of war with myself, I spend hours and hours searching and scrolling for new jobs, where in the world do I want to work and what do I want to do? On the other hand I step back and think why am I putting this enormous amount of pressure on myself, whats the point in finally getting what you want but the road being an absolute nightmare. The applications and searching won't stop but I do take this time, call it downtime if you may from the search to enjoy those moments with my family and friends, although I am not yet in my dream job or working within my degree subject I am privileged to have that little extra time free to spend making memories with loved ones.

I have a day of mid week which I choose to spend with my Granny D. We both have a new found love for this time of year, in the past we saw the shorter evenings and the wet days as a waste because it kept us inside, instead of wanting to be outside we make the most of being indoors and bake. We take this day to master our pumpkin pie skills baking from scratch might I add, from roasting the pumpkin, to making the pastry; you could call us professionals at this stage.

I watched a movie one evening this week called 'post grad' (I just had to watch it from the name of the title), it was quite funny and pretty much made me feel normal when I saw the highs and lows that she went through after graduating. There was a quote from the movie that stood out to me;

"What you do with your life is just one half of the equation, the more important is who your with when your doing it."

Although I dream of being a designer, I take this downtime to enjoy the moments that are magic, bake days with granny, crisp morning runs before the neighbourhood wakes up, walks through my favourite woodland and tea evenings with friends, these are the moments that count and you remember the most.